ShaTTereD Hopes

2006-07-20T16:04:00.000+08:00

Had my Mother Tongue N Level Oral just now.

its very easy.haha.

the reading is okay.except for this word 'mengesborkan'.

haha.i pronounce it wrongly!

shit!minus mark.

haha.

but overall,its easy!

well.gtg now.going out soon with some of my classmates.

buying food and stuffs for this coming bbq pit.

haha!see ya!

2006-07-19T19:19:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is my....

N Level Oral Mother Tongue!!

haha.!

wish me good luck!

thanks!

2006-07-16T15:59:00.000+08:00

Holla!!
next week is my N level malay oral.
haiyo!another oral is coming.nevermind.
hopes that i can pass.haha.
sunday is today.monday is tomorrow.
start of a new week.
tomorrow finish school early!
wee!  


im bored at home today.
no one at home.im HOME ALONE!
haha.nevermind.can do whatever things i wanna do.
haha.anyway meeting farhan,zul and hasbullah(not confirm) at boot and shoes.going explore again!haha.like last week.but today going explore without fuad and fareed.fareed went out with his parents.
we cant get to contact with fuad.he's prepaid is low and dont have house phone.
meeting them around 5.
oh shit!i almost forget that my mum took my ezlink card.
oh great!how am i gonna out?
damn it!
haiyo.nevermind.
i know where to get coins.hehe.
about my previous post,i think they are serious about it.
anyway to my friends who tagged me,thanks for the advise and i feel a bit relief right now.maybe you guys are my true friends.i can see that.haha.thanks guys!love you alL!!haha.
anyway im kinda bored now and dont know what to say.
haha.maybe thats all i wanna say.
haha.chiaoz!

2006-07-14T16:30:00.000+08:00

HoLLLAAA!

Ok.NOw im really back to my blog.

for the past few days,i dont know why i dont have mood to update my blog.

i really dont know why.

too busy with school?i dont think soo.

having soo much problems?i think soo.

sick of blog?HELL NO!

haha.

all i can say is that,im bored with my life nowdays.

thats all.haha.and dont ask me why.

i cant answer that.

friends or family?

which one is more important?

my parents keep nagging me that i important my friends more that my own family.haiz.

they just dont understand me.

thats all i can say for now.

yesterday,my step father nag at me.

all i know his talking rubbish.

haiz.there's one part that makes me very sad and i even cried.

he told me that,if i wont change by end of this month,they want to put me at pertapis.i was soo sad to hear that.i didnt know they wanted to put their own son at there.i cried infront of him.

but he didnt say anything.

after the nagging thingy,i went straight to my room.

locked myself inside.i kept asking myself if i was that bad to be in that kind of place.without my family around,i dont think i can survive.

haiz.what did i do wrong?

they say that i always make them trouble because i keep giving them problems.

AM I THE WORSE CHILD IN THE FAMILY?

DO I ALWAYS GIVE THEM PROBLEMS?

if they really wanna put me there,just be it.

i know they are more happier without me in the house.

but before i go,all i wanna say is that i wanna say sorry to all my friends and my family if i did anything wrongs towards you guys.i may still be here but not for long.my step mother had already contact with the officer about putting me there.so,i think they really want it.so guys,take care ya!

love u guys always!!

2006-07-05T17:27:00.000+08:00

holla!

Had my N level English oral today,
ok lah but abit difficult for the picture conversation.
haha.im not good at that.
really.i was like nervous and i cant think of any idea.
i only for a few sentences only.
then there was a silence for awhile.haha.
then after a few second,then they ask me question.haha.
but overall was ok lah.

anyway,today is my bad day!haiz.
i accidentaly break fuad's watch.i mean the glass.
haiz.i didnt know its gonna happen.
and the watch was like soo sensitive and heavy.
well.i'll try to bring to watches shop at causeway point and see what can they do to that watch.

phew!now my english oral has passed,no need to worry anymore.
haha.but still need to study for others subject.
left exactly 60days to N level.
well.time passes soo fast even we didnt notice it.
but after N level,we can enjoy!haha.burn all the books,throw,dump it and step on it.haha.
wow!am i soo violence?haha.joking only.
i dont do all that.haha.
well.thats all for today's post.
i wanna eat and watch high school musical!haha.
the movie kinda fun.you guys should watch it.ehhe
chaioz!

2006-06-30T14:25:00.000+08:00

next week is my N level oral!!!

oh shit!!i haven revise for the picture conversation.

today in school,had maths paper 2 test.but it doesnt look like test.

many of them walk around in the class,talk and even some ask for question.including me!

haha.i just only do question:1,2,3 and 4.

haha.lazy to do another question.

hehe.had recess in class.haha.

playing soccer bottle with luqman and jack.

kinda lame but its fun when the bottle hit at someone.

jack is the one who always get hit by us.

haha.but the most perfect one is when i kick the bottle and hit and luqman face.

haha.sorry luq!i didnt mean to hurt ya.hope you ok.

haha.after recess,had english.kinda fun.did the oral conversation and picture dicussion.

guess what,i was called up mrs hot mama(eng siew bee)and i need to do the picture dicussion

infront of the whole class.

oh my god!!!i sit down infront of the class.and need to use microphone to talk.

its like what the fcuk!haha.

i really had no idea.i always keep saying

"i dont know..lah"

haha.then she was like angry at me and ask me to sit back at my place.

haha.after school,went to canteen with luqman and amyn.

had our lunch.talk2 about this guy.

he's name is also amin.and his face look like coltley brother.haha.'

i shout his name loudly at the canteen as he walk past us.

but he didnt look.haha.i think he 'paisey' already.

haHA.after eating,went back home.

bath and i overslept.haha.i was like soo tired today.

just wake up just now.

going to changi today with my dad and his friends.

going fishing.haha.cool.long time i never go fishing.

i know some people dont like people who has a hobby of fishing,i you wanna hate me,go ahead.

haha.

ok.thats all i got to say.i wanna watch some movie now.

kinda bored actually.bye!!

happy weekends everyone!

2006-06-28T19:59:00.000+08:00

Back To school!!

boredness!haha.

i miss all those time working.haha.

i've made a lot of friends.

like maggie,fiona,kelvin,ada,christy,ayuni,emiliana and many more.

haha.kinda cool to have friends that are older than me.

because they are more matured and friendly people.

haha.after a few days school,i can feel many differences between working life and studying life.

now i know how tiring it is to earn money.haha.

guess what,all my money finish already.haha.

only left 50bucks.gosh!

bought so many things at town.

really into this shopping mood.haha.

its like i spend around 700bucks at town.

iam crazy!!

now its study time!no more shopping.haiz.

N level is just 2months away.and im still haven prepare for it.

haha.

if i fail my n level,im gonna be in deep deep trouble.

hehe.

well.i got not much time left.i need to do something.

need to do some housework.haha.

2006-06-20T20:54:00.001+08:00

im very2 tired this few days.

i dont feel like working anymore.

now i can feel how tiring it is.

haha.

well,left 5 more days of working.after that,school reopen.

back to school days.hehe.very boring!

last sunday,went town with my sis.

went there for shopping!because i already get my pay.

this is what i bought

a pair of la coste shoe
c&k perfume
topman strip shirt
levis watch
topman's postman cap

yeah.i really into this shopping mood as i get my pay weekly.

haha!gonna continue my shopping quest this sunday.

hehe.i wanna buy more things.wee!!!

gtg now.i need to sleep becuase tomorrow im working.

chiaoz!

2006-06-15T20:14:00.000+08:00

Holla!

sorry for not updating for the past few days.

im busy and tired as i just started working on monday.

haiz.i really got no time to update.

everyday finish work at 7 and sometimes at 9.

kinda fun working but tired also.

well.i already list out my shopping list for this week payday.

wee!cant wait.

Nike Ninja(black)$175
Levis Watch(white)$109
FCUK Perfume($50-$70)
Topman shirts.
Zara Shirt.
Fcuk Jeans.

thats all for my shopping list.

2006-06-11T17:33:00.000+08:00

guess what?

i already get a job.

wee!!i will be working for this two weeks only.

yeahness!

i start working tomorrow.

im felling a bit nervous as this is my first time working.

hope everything will be ok tomorrow as its my first day of work.

my dad told me that i can work at his workplace.

haha.one thing i wanna work with my dad is because of the salary.

haha.one week,i will get $500plus.

since i work for 2weeks,i will get $1000plus.

haha.coolness!!wee!

after that can go town again and shopping!!

haha.im soo happy.

ok.enough of work ok.

yesterday,meet nura at bedok interchange.

i was late.oh god!

i supposed to meet her 4.45pm.but i came around 5.10pm.

im sorry ok.she's a bit angry at me.

haiz.after meeting her,we went to the salon where i wanna cut my hair.

stupid me.from woodlands to bedok just to have a haircut.

haha.crazy me!.

we waited for almost 2hrs just to be my turn.arr!!

im soo damn angry and pissed off.

around 7.15,one of the babber called me.

oh god!finally!i took a magazine and i showed her which type of hairstyle i wanna cut.

haha.after finish cutting my hair,i paid her.cost 10bucks.

then she said sorry to keep waiting for so long.then i said nevermind.

haah.luckily she ask for forgiveness.haha.

after that,took train to sengkang.

she wanted to meet her friends at coffeebean.

after that,took bus 161 to woodlands interchange.

i waited for her bus to arrive.

after she took the bus,i went home.

reached around 9.45.luckily mum didnt say anything.

well.now im waiting for my mum to come back from 'org khawin'.

after that i wanna go causway point.meet nura,

ok.thats all.i wanna bath now.

chaioz!

2006-06-10T11:24:00.000+08:00

olla.

sorry peeps for not updating my blog daily.

kinda busy with stuffs and my dnt thingy.

well.next week,my second sis gonna engage.wee!

i feel very happy for them.haha.

yesterday was fun!!!haha.

went out with fareed,azari and nura.

firstly,me,fareed and azari went to braddle.

SPH building.went there to take photo for the world cup thingy.

and they will publish our pictures on monday berita harian.

haha.there's this part where we took pictures with this 2 unknown guy.

they kinda lame.they are not photogenic at all.

azari said that they were like 'gays'.both of them took the pictures like very closely to each other.omg!!and touch each other face.yuckies!!!

haha.after that,we wait for nura at toa payoh mrt station as she just finish working.

went town.walk2.bought stuffs.we thought of playing pool at lucky plaza but there's too many minahs and matreps.so we went to far east.

bought stuffs.then azari went off because he got karate class.

the rest of us went to taka.i wanna buy this shirt from zara but there's no more size for me.

shitness.after that went to mcdonalds.me and fareed share pepper drumlets.

then lastly we went to topshop.i bought this yellow plain shirt.me and nura already plan to wear the same color today as we want to catch a movie today at tampines.

gonna watch 'cars'.cant wait.

back to yesterday,around 9.45,we waited for azari as he want to go back with us.

after he arrived,we went off.me and fareed alighted at woodlands.azari alighted at cck and nura alighted at clementi.

today,i wake up around 10.30.bath.still haven eat.

im hungry now.waiting for my mum to buy chicken rice for me.

hurry la mum!!im hungry!haha.

well.i gtg now.chiaoz!

2006-06-06T09:13:00.000+08:00

It's All Over for Us.

Thats What She Want.

She HAd foUnd Someone NEw durIng her days At HOspitaL.

i know i was!i didnt visit her daily.thats was my mistake.and i realised it.

i do still love her.but only our photos keep the memories of us.

im useless!i know that.

if you are reding this,all i wanna say is that be happy with your new guy.

hope that he can give you all his love and care towards you.dont do the same mistake to that guy like you did to me.treasure someone you love ok.like you said,your feelings had faded towards me after knowing that ite guy.soo,i have to accept the truth.i am sad and i do cry last night.

but when i think back,there's no use of crying everyday.it wont change.

all your words are meaningless.i cant believe you are like this.

Im hurts and sad...

haiz.i cant believe that she did this to me.

i keep asking myself what i did wrong to her?

why must she make such a hurry decision just like that.

i love her soo much.i dont want to lose her.

when the first time i saw her,my heart tols me that she's the one for me.the right and perfect girl for me.and she said that to me also.

but in the end,its all meaningless.just a sweet talks by her.

to that ite guy,if you break her heart,im gonna break your face!

you already steal her from me and make sure you give her happiness and your fully love.dont ever play behind her.

get that!

2006-06-05T16:58:00.000+08:00

heyhey.

im sorry guys for not updating my blog recently.im kinda busy and no mood to update.

yeah.many problems started to occur one by one.shitness!

all i can is that,dont trust your friends 100%.especially after they stole your things.

haiz.im totally disappointed with some of my friends.i really dont know what i did wrong towards them.whatever la!

today was quite ok but many of my good friends are away.example amyn,fareed and luqman.

had maths and dnt today.kinda fun.making jokes with zul,azari and dolah.haha.

i did my artifacts.glue them together.thats all i did for today's dnt.

continuing tomorrow.well.thanks all i wanna say.

wanna bath now.going out later meeting zul's and clan.

2006-05-31T21:17:00.000+08:00

I HATE THIS LIFE OF MINE!

WHY ARE MY PARENTS KEEP NAGGING TO ME EVERY SINGLE DAY?

NONE OF THEM UNDERSTAND ME.NOBODY UNDERSTAND ME!!

FCUK EVERYONE!!!!

WISH THAT I RUN AWAY FROM HOME!FAR FAR A WAY FROM THEM!

SICK OF THIS LIFE.FCUK MS LEONG FOR CALLING MY HOUSE.

IF SHE DIDNT CALL MY HOUSE,NOTHING WONT HAPPEN.

THIS THING WONT HAPPEN!ARRH!!!!SHITNESS!!!!!!!

CAN YOU PLEASE DONT BOTHERING MY LIFE.

WHY MUST YOU BE BUSYBODY TO KNOW ABOUT MY LIFE?

I CANT STAND IT ANYMORE!ARHHH!!!!

2006-05-28T21:54:00.000+08:00

hellokitty!

well2.im really disappointed with my mid year result.haiz.

really2 disappointed!!gosh!

i only pass my mt.only mt!i know its very bad and im in a critical condition.

only left 3months to n level.and im not prepare and with the result i get,im sure im going ite.

and i dont wish to!if i go ite,im gonna be slacking even worse!!!!

i know not all ite are bad school.but the students!i afraid that im gonna be one of them also if i join ite.all my family members know about my result.my mom and my step dad dont even care about my result.shun them!!!

my step mom and my dad was totally pissed off with my result.haiz

they put too much hopes on me.i know that im the only guy in the family,but please dont put tOO much hopes on me.i dont want to disappoint them again.they want me to do better than my sis.but i cant.cant you understand?!im nothing.a useless person.

i hate to be like this.i wanna change.my of my friends said that i still can buck up for the next 3months before n level.and to you,yana,thanks for the support.haha.

i will try my very best.yesterday went to take report book with my sis.

ms leong told my sis that i always sleep in class and making a lot of noise.

fcuk her.(ms leong)

haiz.my sis told me that she's gonna be my private tuitor!!

haha.thanks sis.anyway,she's gettingt engage soon.next month i think.haha

well.my fingers are in pain right now.keep typing from just now.haha.

see ya!!!

2006-05-26T21:52:00.000+08:00

the movie was great.

worth it for a $8 show.haha.

the movie i was talking about is x-men 3.

i watched with shareezal and ismail at yishun.

there's also a sad part as many of the x-men died.

jean grey,cyclops(scott) and professor xavier.

i really like iceman.his power was awesome.

wish that i can be like him.dream on la haizal!!!

it wont happen.haha.but overall,the show was fantastic.i rate the movie:8/10

haha.after movie,went to causeway point.walk2.after that went to long john silver.i wanted to eat but i dont know why my apetite suddenly change.

haha.reached home around 9.30.bath.eat

and switch on my comp.

well gtg now.

2006-05-24T13:59:00.000+08:00

all i can say is that today is the most boring day ever at school.

had dnt today.while mr teo was talking,i was sleeping.

its very boring and i fell very sleepy today.

around 9,me and zul skip dnt class.haha.

we went to hall.the lower sec just finish their floorball inter class.

then we decide to play.i team with zul againts fareed and terrence.

kinda fun for the moment.but after awhile,its getting boring and tired.

i was sweating like hell.then we went back to class.some of them already in class.

chill and slacking.haha.we talk2.making jokes.haha.

during recess,eat with zul,zanna,naimah,suzy,aminah and syahidah.

after recess,went back to class.play 'laught' with fuad and clans.

very funny.haha.im the first one to finish all cards.haha.

after that.listen to mp3.while some of them play street soccer in class,play guitar,play cards and some of them play with handphones.

its very boring in class.got nothing to do.then some of the 4n1 student join us.

i listen to my mp3 and i was trying to sleep but i cant.

went to canteen alone.buy bottle drink and saw shahkir,hendro and shahril.

they just finish eating.haha.went back to class with them.

and i try to sleep again.and this time i manage to sleep.haha.but only for 15mins only.

wake up.look at my watch.still left 15mins before dismissal time.

talk2.and fareed wrote down at the white board

'number pompan yang boleh buat pakai'

haha.i called the number but the girl didnt pick up.i called again and she pick up.

she ask me 'saper tu?'

i said 'boleh ckp ngan pompan yang boleh buat pakai'

she pass the phone to his guy i think.

and the guy ask me 'kau saper!!'

i quickly hang up.haha.i was scared.then i straight away delete the number.

haha.now i dont know what to do.very bored nowdays!!

well.thats all for now.chaoiz!

2006-05-22T14:15:00.000+08:00

just bored with school nowdays.

i dont know why.i feel like dont want go school anymore.

its just sucks!!haiz.

now parents are mad at me.today i didnt go school.

no mood la.i told my parents that i dont want to go school today.

they was like angry at me.after telling them,i went back to sleep.

wake up around 9.30.bath.switch on my comp.

check my fwenster and myspace.

haiz.today is not my day.

hate that!nothing to update.

2006-05-19T15:19:00.000+08:00

the weekends is here!!

haha.but im gonna be lonely because my hunny wont be in singapore from tomorrow till next saturday.haiz.gonna miss her so much.she's going to thailand.yesterday when we meet,she cried infront of me.she said that she's gonna miss me a lot when im not around.haiz.i explain to her and try not to make her sad.suppose today im gonna meet her.but my parents force me to follow them to jb.haiz.i wish i could meet her today.for the last time.haiz.

anyway.just came back from woodlands point with luqman and amyn.

we chill at woodlands point as we didnt go for friday's prayer.haha.

we talk2.make jokes and laughing non stop hits.haha.

talk2 till 2.20.luqman actually suppose to go for o level mt mock exam.

but since many of them didnt come,he decide not to go also.

me and amyn help him by something.cannot tell.its secret.haha.

while we talking2,it started to rain.

then we decide to wait till the rain cool down.haha.

there's this one boy who lied to his friends that its not raining.

he said 'tak hujan la..betul tak hujan'.

then me,luqman and amyn laught at him.amyn said that 'tipu jek eh' and the boy keep looking at us.haha.so funny.since the rain started to stop,we walk.luqman and amyn took bus and i walk alone.gosh!!!i failed my maths,english and chemistry paper.

damn it.but i pass my mother tongue.yeah2.

but still haven get the result for other subjects.

just school our class attandance was low as many people didnt come.haha.

almost half of the class didnt come.kinda bored without zul but luckily amyn and luqman came.

haiz.im scared if my parents know about my result.im sure they gonna nag at me.

hate that!!well.going jb later.and come back on sunday.

well.to my hunny,i really miss u!!i just pray for to be safe at thailand.dont do anything stupid there.listen to your teacher's instruction.i cant wait for you to come back next saturday.

well.just remember this, 'always together,even apart'.

im sure you remember that line.hehe.take care okies.lurve u always.hope u read my blog today.

and im gonna call you tonight when im at jb.

bye dear!!

2006-05-17T11:34:00.000+08:00

yeah2!!!

finally exam over!!!yeah...

now the exam madness is over..

cant wait for the june holiday.

just now paper was dnt.

qiute difficult.the paper is 2hrs and 30mins.

i went to the toilet twice just to waste time.

but its like uesless...haha.but whatever it is,the exam is over!!

haha.well.guess what?my hunny just call me!!hehe.

miss her voice soo much!!!im gonna fetch her today at boon lay.

gonna miss her soo much!

well.that all for now!gtg now..bye...

2006-05-14T21:09:00.000+08:00

happy mother's day to all mothers in singapore.

haha.well.wake up around 10.30 today.im still sleepy and my sis is like shouting at me to wake up!gosh!cant you respect someone sleeping?no manners!

seh said that if i dont wake up now,mum gonna get angry.

haiz.since today is mother day,i have to listen to her.

as i just wake up,my hunny called me.talk for awhile.

after that,i bath.changed clothes.going to my aunt's house.

got open house.something like that.

its kinda bored.reached there around 12.30.

talk2.eat.and i play my cuzzin's comp.play cs.haha.long time never play that game.

play until 4plus.getting bored.called my hunny,talk to her for awhile.

i really miss her.haiz.next wednesday is our next meeting.but i do miss her a lot.

i still got 5days left to spent time with my hunny because next saturday,she will not be in singapore.she's going to thailand with some of her school mates and teachers.

haiz.im gonna miss her a lot!!haiz.

now im waiting for her call.she's now at lot one with her parents.

dear..call me fast ok!

thats all for today peeps.

2006-05-13T16:56:00.000+08:00

just came back from seeing my hunny,

hehe.im happy when i get to meet her.hehe

i dont know why.its like the enviroment change when i meet her.

haha.well.today wake up at 7.30.call her.whether she already wake up.

talk to her for awhile.then i bath.change clothes.

i call her again before i go out.she said that she just finish bathing.so she ask me to pick her under her block.then i go out from house around 8.reached at her block around 8.35.

she still at home.getting ready.girls mah.always late.hehe.

she came down around 8.55.sit under her block for awhile.plan where we want to go.

its took us 15mins just to name a place to go.haha.finally we decide to go east coast.

took mrt.drop at marsiling then took bus 966.no seat available so we stand.haiz.

i was listening to mp3 while she's reading teen's magazine.

reach at marine parade around 10.30.

walk to east coast.eat at macdonalds.after eating,it started to rain.we waited for a few minutes for the rain to stop.but it still drizzle.we wanted to sit at the waterbreakers but since its raining,we cancel.we walk to marine parade library.its still raining.thought of going to parkway parade.so we didnt go.haiz!what a bad weather today.haha.

took bus 966 to woodlands interchange.and took bus 925 to cck interchange.

we sit under this block.talk2.took pics.hehe.as usual.hehe.

around 3.30,i send her till at her house.

started to miss her that fast.haiyo!haha.

reached home around 4.15.bath.eat.

she called me just now.talk for awhile.then she said that she want to sleep for awhile.

.since this morning she wake up early.haha.i understand.

well.it stop here for today.and maybe tonight going fishing at changi.i think so.not confirm yet.

well gtg now!chiaoz!

2006-05-12T20:44:00.000+08:00

what a boring day for me.

haiz.my hunny cant use the comp because her dad grounded her.

haiz.cant chat with her.but atleast still can talk with her on the phone.

wake up around 9.30.called her.talk for awhile.

she told me that next week she will be busy with the thailand stuffs.

so we cant meet daily.haiz.nevermind.i understand her.

but i will be meeting her tomorrow,wednesday,thursday and friday.

im gonna miss her when she's gone to thailand next saturday.haiz.

im gonna be mr lonely for the whole week till the next week saturday when she come back.

haiz.gonna miss her soo much!!gosh.

well.today im at home playing comp for the whole day.

just now meet elias for awhile.

meet him at civic's macdonald.

walk2 at causeway with him.he told me that he wanna break with his girl.

i really dont understand him.whatever la.

hack care about him.from now on,i dont care about other people as they dont care about me.

so its better for me to be alone and care to only my truely friends and my hunny.

yeah.thats the right thing for me to do.

after meet him,reach home around 2.45.switch on my comp.

i eat.chat.eat chat.

thats all i do today.i really got no mood as today i didnt talk to my hunny much.

miss her voice soo much!!

now waiting for her call.i just called her.she said that she's at pasar malam at nearby her house with her parents.she said that she will call me when she's reach home.

arhhh!!!im bored!i hate when im bored because i have to eat mini cornetto.

and today i already ate 6.gosh!im gonna be fat soon.

well.that all for now.got really no mood to update as i really dont know what im typing.

chiaoz!

2006-05-11T18:19:00.000+08:00

gonna have a long weekends this week.

hehe.4 days for me to rest and study for my exam.

today no need to go school because not having any exam paper.

coolness!wkae up at 9.the first thing i do,i call my larling.

haha.miss her soo much.

after talking with her on the phone,switch on my comp.

check my fwenster,blog and myspace.

she's online.chat with her for awhile.

a few hours left before i meet her.

around 11.she call me.she ask me to go to her house now because elias already reach cck.

i quickly bath and change clothes.

reach cck around 12.30.elias and her fetch me at cck mrt station.walk to her house.

sit outside her house for awhile.then sit inside her house.

i finally get to see danial!haha.he's cute.

play with him for awhile.then go shop with elias,liyana and my larling.

buy instant noodle as me and elias was soo hungry.

went back to my larling house.eat.took some pics.

then go inside her house.i was playing with danial while elias and liyana playing the comp.

took pics again with my larling.then around 4,elias wanted to go home because he's gonna meet his brother at home.walk to cck interchange.took bus 925.

elias was sleeping in the bus.i couldn't sleep.listen songs in my phone.

reach woodlands around 5.15.elias was late.

he rushed to take bus 969.i took bus 903.

reach home around 5.30.

change my clothes and eat.haha.soo hungry liao.

now i want to call me larling.miss her so much eventhough we just met a few hours ago.

chiaoz!

2006-05-10T13:52:00.000+08:00

had maths and physics paper today.

physics was easy.haha.i didnt even revise on that subject but i can all questions.

cool huh!it took me only half an hour to complete the paper.

but the actually duration is 1hr and 15mins.hehe.

after finish doing the paper,i sleep.thats all we can do during exam.

haha.after physics,had recess.eat with zul.

then go to the aiiiirrrport.haha.

thats the place where zul always fag.

wait for him like shit in the toilet.

after he's done,went to the hall.

aminah asked zul whether amyn did say anything to him about them.

then zul say no.she told us that amyn has changed and they ask us why.

i said that i know the reason why but i didnt tell them coz i want to keep my words.

i already told amyn that i wont tell anyone so i didnt tell anyone.

haha.then they look at me with a weird looks.

i just walk away.hack care la.

i know if i gonna stay for a longer time,im sure they gonna force me to tell them.

haha.and i know they gonna gossip about me.

i can bet you!

hear mp3 while revising my maths.

had maths paper.gosh!its damn difficult sia!

i didnt aswer some question because i was totally blank.

i didnt know anything about maths.i just hate that subject.

while after finish doing the graph thingy,i sleep.

paper finish at 12.05.

go home alone.while im waiing for my girl to call me.

i called her house then her younger sister pick up.told me that my girl accompany her grandma to jurong point.going somewhere i dont know where.

then she call me using her grandma's phone.

yeah...hehe.finall get to hear her voice.

miss her soo much eventhough we are meeting each other tomorrow.

hehe.k la.i know that amyn right now is waiting for me to finish updating my blog because he wanna read about the sista2 lurb thingy.haha.

2006-05-09T19:57:00.000+08:00

EXAM MADNESS!!

arrhh...

im stress!!

i wanna get out from this nightmare!

i didnt study and i sit for that exam?am i crazy?

gosh!still left 5 papers!and i cant wait for next wednesday because thats my last day of exam.

but still cant enjoy.because there's still prelims and the actual 'n' level exam.

gosh!today's paper was a bit difficult.

but i didnt manage to answer all question for my maths paper one.

haiz.i really dont know anything about maths!i just hate maths soo much!

after maths paper,had recess.i sit with zul and da sista2 lurb!

haha.guess what?me and zul are back to disturb naimah again!

haha.me and zul was laughing all the way because we get to know that naimah was a

"MINAH REP"!

haha.had fun throughout the recess.but why amyn is like avoiding me?

but when he told me the whole story,im now understand why he's acting like that.

sorry amyn because i like to jump into a conclusion just like that without knowing the truth.

im sorry!!but we are still friends right?haha.

after recess,had geography paper.its was super duper easy!

haha.i manage to answer all question!

woohoo!!im sure mr.gow gow(mr.gowri) gonna be proud of me.haha.

but something make me angry.

in the timetable,it's tell us that today paper gonna finish at 12.

but it's finish at 12.30!i was soo fucking angry because im gonna meet my girl around 1.30 at boon lay interchange.

i quickly go home,bath and change my clothes.

i was rushing to the interchange.

its already 1.15 and im still at the woodlands mrt platform waiting for the train.

gosh!im sure she's gonna be mad at me.

while waiting for train,saw fairul.he's going for cheer practise at cck stadium.

took the same train with him.then he drop at yew tee.

reached boon lay exactly at 2pm!omg!!

meet her at this shop called 'yellow'

she's with her sis and her sis's friend.

both of them go home after meeting me.left me and my girl.

when to this shop but i dont know the name of that shop.

my girl wanna pierce her right ear.

cost 4bucks.i pay for her ofcourse.

after that,when to kfc.buy drinks and sit down.

talk2 while waiting for my oldpal,elias.

he's my primary school friend.its a long story how we met and contact with each other again.

after he arrive,took bus 975.go to my girl's friend block.

after we arrive,me and my girl went to esso to buy drinks and food.

get back to the block.we talk2.blah blah.

around 5.30,me and elias go home.

took 925 from cck interchange.

reached home around 7.15.its was raining heavily.

clean myself.eat.and switch on my comp.(as usual)

well.im gonna switch off my comp soon.need to study for physics.

hehe.well.gtg now.bye!

2006-05-07T21:44:00.000+08:00

Hello Kitty!

Just Came back from jb.im tired though.

gosh!

i haven study for my mid year exam.

shit!i totally forgot about exam.damn it!

i got this feeling that im gonna fail for the mid year very badly.

im gonna die if my parents know about it.

they really put too much hopes on me.

they say that i can do better that my sisters.

i really wanna prove them what they think of me.

but what if i fail to fulfill their wish?

im sure they will be disappointed with me.

haiz..i really dont know what to do.i dont think i can pass with excellent grades.

for all these years,i always pass with unsatisfied grades.

a border rate marks.

but i will try my very best to score higher marks and get better grades.

so.i have less time to update my blog.haiz.

but i will find a minute to update.hehe.

well.gtg now.need to study for formal letter format.

hehe...

chiaoz!!!

2006-05-04T14:38:00.000+08:00

I HATE MY LIFE!!

I WISH I CAN CHANGE MYSELF!

TO ME,IM USELESS.IM NOTHING TO MY FAMILY.

MY TWINS SISTER ARE MORE IMPORTANT TO THEM.

MY PARENTS DONT CARE ABOUT ME ANYMORE.

THEY JUST IGNORE ME.DIDNT EVEN TALK TO ME.

THEY ONLY TALK TO ME WHEN THEY NEED HELP AND ASK FOR HELP.

IF NOT,THEY WONT TALK TO ME.

YESTERDAY WAS LIKE SHIT.MY MUM KEEP ASKING ME TO DO THIS,DO THAT.SHE THINK IM A MAID IS IT?

WHEN SHE'S NOT HAPPY WITH SOMETHING,SHE WILL SPOT MY MISTAKE AND SHOUTED AT ME.I WISH THAT MY TWINS SISTER DIDNT EXIST.

BECAUSE OF THEM,I CANT GET WHAT I WANT.

MY PARENTS ALWAYS SIDED THEM.THEY SAY THAT I SHOULD GIVE WAY TO THEM.THEY STILL SMALL.BLAH BLAH BLAH.

DO I CARE?HATE MY TWINS SISTER!

NOW IM ALL ALONE!NO ONE CARE ABOUT ME.

I SHALL LIVE BY OWN STARTING RIGHT NOW.GOSH.

MY EXAM START TOMORROW AND I DIDNT EVEN REVISE A SINGLE THING.

I REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT HAPPEN TO ME.I'VE CHANGE A LOT.

GETTING FROM BAD TO WORSE!I WANT TO THINGS TO BE DIFFERENT.

I HATE THE WAY I AM RIGHT NOW!.GOD PLEASE HELP ME!

I HATE WITH THIS LIFE OF MINE!!!

2006-05-03T18:03:00.000+08:00

hey...........

i really not in a mood to update my blog because now im weak and tired.

i force myself to get up and switch on my comp.

i didnt go to school today.im sick.

having stomach pain and running nose.

wake up at 8.went to polyclinic alone.

waited for almost 2 hours to see the doctor.

gosh.what took them so long?if someone were to be very sick,i think that person will die waiting for the doctor.haiz.i should have go to private clinic.

haiz.reached home around 11 plus.eat.watch tv.

i switch on my comp but i sleep.i was soo sleepy to switch off my comp.

wake up around 4.eat again.damn bored.got nothing to do.might as well eat and sleep right.

i miss all my friends at school.especially my favourite class.hehe.

well.gtg now.my mum ask me to eat my medicine and take a rest.

chiaoz!!

2006-05-02T21:26:00.000+08:00

holla everyone.

back to school today.

gosh.i still want weekends to rest.

i dont have enough rest and sleep.

haha!this morning,there a hair check again.

and my name had been called out by mr yeo.

he check my hair but he still dont satisfied with my hair.

oh my god!!!i already had my haircut yesterday and it cost me $22 bucks but he still dont like it!

shit you mr yeo!!

OM cut my hair a bit at the back.

went to toilet to clear all my hair on my uniform.

didnt go to mt lesson because of the hair check.

had physics.did test paper.i really cant do a single question.gosh!

whats wrong with me?im becoming bad to worst and my studies is slacking.

during recess,eat my pizza.brought from home.

after recess,chemistry lesson.

i listen to my mp3 during that lesson.

had maths after that.during maths lesson,all of the malay guys disturb danial.

haha!!all of us throw bottles and files at him.

haha!!we bullied him.haha.

mt lesson a bit bored la.

need to do formal letter and composition.

oh my god!!!i hate to do that shit!!

during lunch,i eat with zul,karim,fadhil.

had cme after that.got nothing to do.

i read newspaper while listening to my mp3.

kinda bored though!!

after school,went to 205 for awhile.

then i go home with azari.

reach home.i quickly bath and change my clothes because im meeting zara today!

wee!!im so happy.haha.finally i get to meet her.

i supposed to fetch her at her school(ite simei)

but i didnt.i cant make it on time.

change the venue.meet her at tamp library bus stop.

and i was late!!oh my god!!i think she was angry at me.

i was so scared that she will be mad at me.

i keep saying sorry because i dont want her to be angry.but luckily she didnt.

so sweet right.haha.we went to tampines mall.walk2.talk2.

around 6.30,she said that she must be home before 7.15.

i send her till under her block.

then i took bus 168 from there,but i dont know what happen.

suddenly the bus breakdown.shitness!!

i got no choice and i took 969.

till khatib,i took the train to woodlands.

reach home around 9.10.

i eat and now im here updating my blog.

well.im tired now.gtg.

see ya!

2006-05-01T20:33:00.000+08:00

my leg,my buttock and my hand is cramp..

its really painful.

just came back from zul's bbq pit.

it's really fun!!i enjoyed it!!

boo hoo!!

reached on sunday afternoon.around 5plus.

went with luqman,amyn,naz,jamal,jalal,hafiz and danial.

but none of them overnight except me.

lame sia..

we settled down,pitch my tent.help zul's parent to bqq some chicken,hotdog and prawn.

shikin,karim,dolah,hafiza and azari reached there earlier.

after we eat,i change my clothes and we play soccer at the beach.

quite fun.haha.luqman,naz and danial is my team.the first round,we won.

but second round we lost.because all of us is already exhausted.

around 8plus,me,zul,karim,dolah and azari rent overnight bike.

one bike cost $8.but its worth it la.need to return the bike in the morning.

and our best teacher came down to zul's bbq.she's cool.

haha.we sit with her at the other bbq pit.

talk2.chit chat.making jokes.laught2.

after she go,luqman,jamal,jalal,amyn and naz also went home.

left me,azari,karim,dolah and zul.we decide to cycling.

the first round,we cycle till at the far end jetty(not the bedok jetty)

after we reached at that jetty,iman call zul's hp.he told us that iman want to tag along with us.

so,we have to cycle back to the mcdonald and meet him there.

he also want to cycle with us but not enough bike.

went back to zul's pit.take a rest.karim tols us that he want to sleep.

so,right after he sleep,iman took his bike.

me,iman,dolah,zul and azari cycle till the same jetty again.

chill over there for a moment.then azari and iman came out with this idea.

they want to cycle till changi village.but me and zul do not agree.

haha.but they keep persuating us.

so we agree.we start cycling at around 4.15am.

its was really far.the distance is about 24km.at the journey took 1hr 30mins.

after we reached changi village,all of us is so exhausted and sleepy.

we rest for a few minutes.then we cylce back to east coast.

but something happen to me.when we on the way back to east coast,i was at the back of them.all of them were infront of me.

this is when something happen to me.

when i cycle past this factory,two dogs chase me!!!!

damn it!!i was soo panic that i cycle as fast as i can to escape from the dogs.

can you imagine that i and zul was 100m apart and when the dogs chase me,in a few seconds,i already beside zul.haha.im really panic sia.but luckily the dog doesnt chase for a long time.

i told them about this and they laught at me.!!

they are so mean!!

after we reached at zul's bbq pit,we quickly run the to tent.

all of us is soo tired.but me and zul cant sleep.

so we decided to bath and send back our bike.

after all of us change our clothes and went back.took bus 966.

right after i reached home,i straight away grab my pillow and sleep.

wake up around 6.45pm,bath and went to causeway point for my haircut and buy earpiece.

reached home and here i am updating my blog.

and i dont feel like going to school tomorrow.

i still do not have enough sleep.

i want to sleep!!!!!!

2006-04-27T18:42:00.000+08:00

Im having a running nose!!!!

i hate it!

Because of that,i have no mood in school and always feel sleepy.

i already ate 2 panadol pill but still the same.

arhh!!many bad things happened to me.

today is known as 'haizal's bad day'

first,i came to school late eventhough my house is near to my school

its was like 5mins distance and i sill came to school late.

because of the stupic alarm clock,i wake up late.

i reach school around 7.45.

take fingerprint attandance at the general office.

during dnt lesson,i was sneezing all the way.shitness!

i really cant tolerate this.i feel like cutting my nose and exchange with other people.

let them feel how i felt.

i still remember that i bought 2 packets of tissue from home,but half during dnt lesson,my tissue finish already.gosh!did i eat the tissues or what?

farhan gave me his tissue.haha.thanks bro.

but still not enough.i had to buy a packet of tissue at canteen.

during recess,i stay in class.eat my pizza that i brought from home.

i eat it alone.i dont want to share with my friends.

continue back to 'haizal's bad day'

second thing happen to me!

mr yeo called me,farhan and hasbullah during english lesson.

we forget to go for detention during recess for being a latecomer.

arrhh!!we have to walk around the field for 50 rounds.

gosh!50 rounds?are you nuts?

i walk with yana and shikin.

we walk for almost 1hr.

our legs were covered with muds!

eee!!!disgusting!!my pants also kene mud.

shit man!how am i gonna go for learning joourney with dirty pants.

arhhh!!i tried to wipe the mud with tissues,but still left the stain.

oh my god!!!

after cleaning myself,went for malay class.

mdm ruzzana wont be going in our class for today and tomorrow!

yahoo!thats mean its a happy hour for us!!lets celebrate!

around 1pm,we have to go for early lunch because my class are going for learning journey to NEWater.

haha.we have a lots of fun there.taking pics.keep disturbing ms fucking shit.

haha.i even took her pic.haha.i hope that my phone wont spoilt containing her pic inside.haha!!!

she had a bus sick!!haha!!all of us shout at her in the bus.

bus sick!!bus sick!!haha.

reach school around 4.45pm.

went home straight.and now here i am.

updating my blog and creating myspace.

hehe.thats all for to post.

the weekends is here!!!haha.

2006-04-26T17:05:00.000+08:00

holla!!

I WANT A JOB!!!

i really need a job.i need extra cash.

during dnt lesson,me,amyn,hendro,shahkir and shahril were talking about work.

haha.the four of us excluding amyn,decided to work at the same place.

haha.this friday we are going for interview at bukit batok delifrance.

yeah2.amyn recomment to work there because one of his manager need atleast 3-4boys.

haha.this time i really want to work.

cant wait.wee!!but im afraid that my parents wont allow me to work at this period because the exam is just around the corner.

should i tell them the truth or i work secretly?

i dont know.but i really want to work.

CAN ANYONE HELP ME?

all of them agree about the job thingy.

im confused!!

2006-04-25T16:51:00.000+08:00

holla everyone!!

everything is ok at school today.

i dont know why school nowdays are soo boring.

my school is getting boring.many things had changed compare to last year.

the teacher are getting lamer nowdays especially ms fucking shit(ms sarah leong)

she everytime scold me for no reason.need my help but she dont appreciate it.

haiyo!!i help for nothing.!!bustard!

i dont feel like going to school anymore.

i feel like studying at home and only coem to school to take my 'n' level exam.

each morning when i wake up,i feel like not going to school.

but i come to schooln because i want to meet my friends!!

haha.all my friends are cool!they cheer up the class.

make jokes everyday in class,gossiping about others and disturbing ms fucking shit.

haha.

i think i want to vote her for the lamest teacher award in siling!

haha.serve her right.

boo hoo!!!!

now im bored at home.nothing to do.im hungry!!

k lar.gtg now.i want to eat.

chiaoz!!

2006-04-24T16:34:00.000+08:00

holla!

what a boring day at school.

nothing much happen but something happen to me.

arghh!!its my leg.its hurting me.i have a blister on my leg.

i shouldnt have playing soccer barefooted.

stupid me.now it hurts me.

ouch!!!!!!!!!!!!

well.during chemistry lesson something bad happen.

ms fucking shit(ms sarah leong),scolded me,zul,luqman and jamal for nothing.

shitness!!hate her soo much.

she called the office to bring down all of us to the office.

she want us to be in the other class.

fuck sia.why must she always pick us?and not the others?

she is sOO bias!!always spot our mistake and not the others.

not fair!she always sided the chinese.

she is soo anti races!haha.

everytime step into the class,nagging nagging!!

even my mom is not that worse.

overall:i hate today!!!its freaky monday!!!

im outz!!

2006-04-21T14:16:00.000+08:00

hey ya everyone!

finally the weekends is here!

it's time for me to enjoy..haha!

well..today school boring!!

me,amyn,luqman and zul cannot disturb naimah anymore!!

and thats lame!!!

murne scolded me and amyn for disturbing her.

why must she be in this matter?

she is sOO idiotic!

so busybody to interfere people problem.

well..dont want to talk about her anymore.

sick of tired of her.

during maths lesson,me and vivien play bingo.

haha.what a lame game.

but i still play.actually i have to complete my maths test first,i didnt do at all!

haha.maths is a boring subject for me.

i dont know why.

me and vivien play betting.the loser must buy a bottle of drink for the winner

shitness!how can i lose to her.next monday i need to treat her a bottle of drink.

haha.after school,me,luqman and nazirul went to the underground because i want to buy a silicon casing for my hp.and it cost me 6bucks.damn it!

haha.then we went to woodlands point.

buy food at macdonalds.

we talk about our past during sec 2.

we have to stay at the woodlands point till 1.45 because we dont want to go for friday's prayer.

haha.i walk with luqman.we talk about this nokia phone.

we challenge each other who get the phone first.

the dateline is till the school reopen after june holidays.

haha.but that phone is fucking expensive.

but i will try my best to get that phone as soon as possible

haha.!!well luq,im gonna get that phone first!

haha!!!!

well.later im going to jb.sleeping over at my jb house

come back on sunday.so thats mean i cant update my blog during weekends.

shitness!ok la.i need to pack my stuff now.

so have a nice weekends bloggers!!!

peace out!

2006-04-20T19:36:00.000+08:00

hey ya everyone!!!

guess whose back??haha..

well..i know its kinda lame though.

but im damn happy today because i get update my blog today.

hehe.i know some of you cant really wait for me to update my blog.

and your wish finally come true.

hehe..i dont where to start because its been 3 months i didnt update.

well..for the past three months,everything is A- ok!

my friends are still my friends.

my family are still my family.

haha.okok.i better stop the crap.

i really got no idea where to start.

all i can say is that i miss typing these button on my keyboard.

miss my msn friends.

miss downloading songs.

miss chatting.

and mostly i miss my blog!!!!

but now im facing a big problem.

i forget already how to change the skin..

arghh!!can someone help me??please.

haha.well guys,i will stop here for awhile.

i will update again maybe tomorrow or tonight.

im busy right now.

my mum started to nag again everytime i touch the comp.

hate her!!bluek!

see ya!!and dont forget to tag me!!!

2006-01-29T15:33:00.000+08:00

wee!!

i finally i got these precious time to update my blog.

thanks to the chinese new year holiday.

yeah.

without this chinese new year,i dont think i have the time to update my blog.

haha.well.for the past few days,its kinda bored.

nothing much happen.

school is getting stress right now.

can feel the stressness.

well.i have to bear with it if i want to pass my 'n' level.

thats mean i have no time to update my blog everyday like i used to.

well.this weekends is a long weekends for us.

we dont celebrate chinese new year.

soo,we have time to relax at home.

killing time at home.

ya.we can do anything we want.

haha.well.i dont know what im talking about.

im sick for the past few days.

had flu.

shitness!!!!

i cant tolerate this.

because of this stupid flu,i've been send back from school.

yeah.mr gowri ask me to go home last wednesday.

he afraid that it will infect others student and teachers.

but i dont think that its that soo serious.

i dont bring sickness or virus to school.

duh!!!stupid la him.

well.thats all for today post.

and happy chinese new year to all chinese people in singapore.

gon chi fa xia!!!

2006-01-27T15:00:00.000+08:00

wee!!

finally the weekends is here.

woohoo!!

A long weekends for me to rest.

but too bad,i have to complete my dnt folio.

oh my god!!

shitness.lots of homework to do for this weekend.

but tomorrow im going out.

hehe.with my sis and her boyfriend.

go eat at pizza hut only.

lame right!!!

well,soo far,school is ok la.

but i cant take it with teachers.

i hate many of the teachers who in charge of my class.

they sux!!i hate them!!

haha.boohoo!

i wish i could take a handgun,and shot them directly at their head!

give them a headshot

haha.i dont know why lar.

im a bit crazy today.

haha.soo,just bear with me ya.

well.i gtg now.im sleepy already.

want to sleep for awhile.

2006-01-24T22:44:00.000+08:00

what a boring day at school.

hell yeah!!

came back school at 5 because of a stupid course

its soo damn bored that make me sleepy.

well.after school,i went home straight.

coz im meeting my sis at orchard at 6.15.

but i came late.hehe.only 15minutes late.

she doesnt matter anyway.

coz im the birthday boy today.

haha.well.

go zara,my sis bought this black pant.

after that,we eat at delifrance.

a birthday treat from my sis.

haha.cool right.

even though she bought for me a quiksilver shirt,still give me treat some more.
well.after eating,we go heeren.

i bought this plain brown flip flop.

haha.only cost 7bucks.

after that,go topshop.

my sis have this discunt card.

she actually want to use it but since she cant find any clothes that she want to buy,

she gave it to me.

haha.coolness.

and i bought 2 plain shirts.

brown and green color shirt.

only cost 2obucks.

cheap sia!!

then went home.

now im here updating my blog while i still have homeworks to finish up.

haiyo!!

i have to do now.

good night readers!!

by the way,

today is my birthday!!!wee!!

finally.sweet 16.haha.

2006-01-23T16:43:00.000+08:00

well.school is sux nowdays.

because of my stupid form teacher,ms sarah leong!!

she always nagging2 each time she step into our class

even my ears cant ake it anymore.

i hate today!!

had running nose sia!

had P.E,run for 2.4km

my timing is 13minutes flat!

omg!getting worsen.

after P.E,play pool during recess.

sneeze...

social studies was ok.

physics ok also.

goegraphy boring!

i always sneeze in class.

cant focus on the lesson

had lunch.

i ate mee soto and i put 3full spoon of chillies.

hehe.coz zul said that if i have flu,must eat hot food.

but like no different like that!!

useless.

sneeze...

most happening is during chemistry lesson.

haha.

6students had been sent out of class.

farid,fareez,nazirul,danial,hafiz and jamal.

pity on them.

then,we make lots of jokes in class

until ms sarah leong join us laughing.

soo funny lar.

well.today we finish school on time.

luckily.

haha.

well.a few hours left till midnight and my birthday.

hehe.

cant wait lar to be sweet 16.

cool huh.

but now im suffering of running nose.

haiz.

hehe.im still waiting for my dream present to arrive.

but i got this feeling that i wont get it lar.

haiz.what to do.

well.got to go now.

bye.i will be updating more on my birthday tomorrow!!

see ya!chaioz

2006-01-19T16:49:00.000+08:00

im soo damn freaking angry man!!

what did i do you wrong towards her?

why must she make up stories?

wtf!!!

now,everybody knows about this.

haiz.

whats wrong with her?

just because i dont love her anymore

i didnt accept her back

she want to make up stories about me?

say whatever you want!

i dont give a damn lar.

im a bustard right.

say whaterver you want idiot!!

i hate you.

im really confused sia.

when i didnt talk to her,she said that im hypocrite

when i talk to her,she thought that i like her.

confusing right.i dont know what to do now.

now she upset and angry at me because i dont accept her back.

i dont love her.

i dont have any feelings toward her.

i just treat her as a normal friends.

thats all.not beyond that.

she once break my heart,and she expect me to accept her back.

dream on lar.

i love only one person.

and the person should know if she read this.

2006-01-18T19:49:00.000+08:00

sorry for not updating nowdays.

im busy and not feeling well.

im having fever,cough and flu.

oh my god!!

please help me.

im weak.

but i have to go to school tomorrow.

dont want to miss a single lesson.

gosh!!

my leg is cramp.

cant wait properly.

shit.

why this must be happening to me?

haiz.

i hope i will recover soon.

haiz.

but yesterday was unbelieveable.

i saw lala at causeway point.

its like all of the sudden.

cant believe it.

but i dont think she saw me because its like far distance.

hope she saw me.

i was soo happy.

haha.

well.gtg now.

still have dnt's folio to complete it.

MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING!!!!

2006-01-14T19:05:00.000+08:00

well.let us start the countdown for my birthday.

haha.

i cant wait.i want to become more mature guy when im 16

haha.

no more folling around.

and yulyul had already promise me to bring me to queenz,

when im 16.

wee!thanks yulyul.

haha.

my first time go clubbing.

wee!!

but still,im still disappointed with fianna.

haiz.

i've sacrifise everything for her.

but she didnt appreciate it.

im soo stupid!!

all her words all meaningless.

empty words!!

cant trust girl anymore.

but i do still waiting for princess lala.

haha.

i just cant forget about her.

i dont know why.

i've already promise kaiyisah and kak nana that i wont give up on her.

i really mean it.

i kept my promises.

i wont break my promises!!

i wont!!!

2006-01-13T16:31:00.000+08:00

hey ya

i know i've not been updating my blog for almost a week

i think.

hehe.im a bit busy for these day

preparing for cca promotion day

thats actually tomorrow.

hehe.

haiz.im soo tired

everyday come back late.

need to rehersal every single day!!

wtf!!

haiz.im now superduper tired.

haha.need lots of rest.

tomorrow need to go school early.

shitness!!

i hope tomorrow's performance will be fantastic!!

haha.we have been practicing almost everyday.

we will put up a good performance tomorrow.

i promise.hehe.

and guess what?

my birthday is getting near!!!

wee!!!

cant wait to be 16!!

haha.

hpoe i will get lots and lots of presents.

wee!!!

2006-01-09T17:58:00.000+08:00

haiz.its still raining from the past few days.

haiz.

cant play soccer!!

arhh.

I WANT TO PLAY SOCCER!!!

haiz.well.

today at school nothing much happen.

hehe.

all the subject are boring!!

get scolded by ms leong for not paying attention during chemistry lesson.

haiz.also get scolded by ms woo for not paying attention in class also.

what happen to me?

im not used to be like this before.

im slacking man.

cant focus in class.

with the cold weather and air condition in class.

its make me sleep.

but i didnt.haha

boohoo!!

but really its really nice of you sleep in a air condition class.

haha.

well.

tomorrow is hari raya haji.

but wont get green packets.

hopefully get atleast one.

haha.well.

i gtg now.

im sleepy.

and its really nice to sleep during rainy day.

hehe.

ciaoz!!!

2006-01-08T22:43:00.000+08:00

Look at my ugly hair!!!its sucks!!!

arhh.its still raining for the past few days.shit!cant play soccer man.haha.miss the fun of playing soccer with my friends.hehe.

just now went for my haircut with zul,mamat and syabil.

haha.but my new hair is suck!!

oh shit.the aunty dont know how to cut hair.

screw her!!make her saloon bankrupt!!!

haha.now.i just have to wait till my hair grow long again.

hehe.well.nothing much today.

today i suppose to go for training.

but because of the bad weather,we have to cancel.

haiz.well.its almost 11 already.

need to sleep now.

tomorrow school!!!

wee!!!

2006-01-07T14:45:00.000+08:00

well todays is wet saturday huh.it was raining since yesterday.

its like non stop hits.haha

the weather nowdays is cold and wet.

hate that.cant do much outdoor activities with that kind of weather

haha.well

today i wake up late.coz im soo tired for the past few days.

wake up around 12 plus today.

need to do stupid chores today.

soo,i decided to wake up late.haha

change the bedsheet,wash the fans and sweep my room

haiz.hate to do all this stupid housework.

coz everything i do all this,i will sneeze and have flu.

my nose is very sensitive to dusts.

haha.

till now i still have flu.

shitness!!

today i dont think im going anywhere

coz i got no plan for this weekend.

death to boredness!!

well.i will be updating more later.gtg now.

chiaoz!!

back.haha.bored to the max!!

jsut now meet zul and fareed at causeway point.

went to popular

bought our dnt materials.

zul treats us the materials coz he has a popular voucher.

haha.

after that,went to tekong park.

met syabil there.

sufian was also there.cool.

play soccer at street soccer

i team with hazman,alfee and this one kid.

hazman is the top scorer.haha.

i didnt score any.

boohoo!!

when we were playing,it started to rain.

shitness!!

quickly run to the nearest block.

wait till the rain stop.

sufian went home already.

then me,zul and syabil went to causeway point

syabil bought food at mcdonald for his sis.

after that,we chill under his block.

killing time talking rubbish.haha.

then around 9plus,i went home coz my dad called me.

haha.reach home around 10.bath.eat.watch football.

and now im updating my blog.

well.im tired now.need some rest.

good night peeps!!

2006-01-06T15:19:00.000+08:00

hey ya.this is some of my photo that were taken in class today!!haha.

2006-01-05T22:10:00.000+08:00

hey.i got no time to update my blog.need to study!!soo.i have to make this a quick one.

ok.today is the third day of school.soo far ok lar.not that stress.just have to wait till next two months.then you can feel the stressness.haha.well.today sux!!haha.had maths lesson for 2hours?omg!!i cant take it.i know im weak in maths but no matter how i tried,i still fail that subject.shit.stupid me!haha.had a maths test.oh shit!want to knwo what,i didnt do 2 question.haiz.coz i didnt know a single thing.about pythagoras or what shit.i hate maths!!but i have to force myself to like maths coz if i fail maths,i cant go polytechnic.haiz.i want to go poly.shit.i need to do something with my maths.arhh!!i gtg now.no time say more.bye.I HATE MATHS!!!.

2006-01-03T17:47:00.000+08:00

haha.school finally open!!wee!im soo happy only for the first day of school.yerp.coz usually first day of school we dont study.haha.but i must study!'n' level is like 9 months away and im here still fooling around.omg!if i continue to be like this,i will definitely gonna fail my 'n' level.soo.i need to buck up.yes i must!i have to forced myself to study.haha.well just was soo bored in the hall.the principle had speech.soo damn bored when its come to speech thingy.haha.all the sec 1 look soo dumb.haha.really.im not critising them but they make me do that.haha.ecspecially the girls,wear long skirt.haha.better wear 'kain'.hehe.my form teacher is mr sarah leong.haha.i think she's gonna die in the middle of the year with our class behaviour.haha.she's gonna quit teaching soon if our class keep making noise and soo on.haha.but overall.its fun lar.hehe.well.thats all peeps.haha.will be updating again on my birthday.haha.still 21days to go.well.gtg now.

2006-01-02T11:40:00.000+08:00

wow.its really fast huh.today is the second day of a new year.well.all the memories of 2005 are still in my head.haha.still remember those days in school with my friends.having fun.disturb people and even the teachers are being bullied by us.haha.miss those days.now.im going to be 16 in 23days.soo fast.2005 is the most happiest moment.coz.finally i find the girl that i've been searching for the past 2years.haha.im really happy on that day.well.maybe today is my last day updating my blog.coz i need to study for 'n' level this year.need to cut down on computer and tv and even my soccer training.i wont be going to soccer training anymore.till my 'n'n level finish.really.well.gtg now.bye.gonna miss my blog a lots.

2006-01-01T16:48:00.000+08:00

am i really that bad?am i useless?really?i think i am.haiz.i dont know what happen to my family now?fcuk!really.im stress right now.i dont know what to do.shit!everything should be blame on me!!its all my fault.just blame!!!because of the stupid food thingy,its become like this!!no!!this shouldn't be happening to my family.haiz.feel like crying but i keep it to my heart.no one knows what i feel.only me can feel the hurts.please!dont do this to my family.i need them!only this place where i can reveal everything i feel.im sad!now my sis is moving out from this house.i dont know where she's gonna live.why must she get it out from this house?haiz.why must this happen to my family and not to other family?why?why?its all my fault!why my mom still letting my sis go?why?why is my mom didnt care about my sis?where are they gonna stay?become a begger?with two kids by her side.why are they gonna live?i feel like killing myself.why cant my family become like other family where they are always happy.but not my family.always quarrel!!why?maybe this is the end of my family?no mood to say much.haiz.

2005-12-31T13:52:00.000+08:00

today is the eve of new year.haha.still left 10hrs and 5mins.hehe.well.im going out now.hehe.going ecp with my sis and her bf.hope its gonna be fun.i think.well gtg now.later when i came back from ecp,i will update more ya.

back.haiz.im soo disappointed!haiz.today had been ruined!fcuk!i hate today!seriously.want to go ecp with my sis,but didnt go coz its raining.after that.thought of meeting my sis and her bf at town,but didnt go also coz they were caught in a heavy rain at suntec.haiz.had aa last minute plan.meet ayu at town.accompany her to gets her thingy at her office.after that,went home.boredness!!send ayu until interchange.then meet sufian for awhile.walk2 at causeway point.i bought ministry of sound dance nation album.coolness!haha.then went back home.now im here updating my blog.haha.bored to the max dude!got nothing to do.haha.wow.its like soo fast to 2006.haha.a brand new year is coming up!well.gtg now.i want to countdown party with myself in this pinkish room.haha.actually in my sis room.bye.HAPPY NEW YEAR!2006!

2005-12-30T21:38:00.000+08:00

hey ya!im back.finally back in my lovely country.haha.miss many peoples.haha.especially kak nana,kaiyisah,lala and mostly i miss my pillow and bed..haha.well.its been three days i never update my blog huh.guess what?its gonna be new year soon.two days to go!!hoho.happy new year eveyone!haha.cant wait for new year.lets forget about all the past in 2005.and in 2006,lets start afresh!haha.

^_^and below is my new year resolution^_^

study hard for 'n' level
get atleast 5points for 'n' level
become more matured
cut down on comp and tv
eat more chocolates
try not to break people's hearts again(i promise)
study 2hrs a day
start to save money

thats all.haha.well i need to rest now.im tired.haha.bye.

2005-12-28T08:53:00.000+08:00

morning everyone!!today im going to jb.haiz.gonna miss everyone in singapore.i will be back in singapore on sunday.im going today.miss her a lot.hope she will take care of herself.well.gtg now.but keep on tagging okies peeps!thanks!take care!

2005-12-27T20:10:00.000+08:00

hey ya.im back!hehe.im tired right now!really2 tired and exhausted.everyday play soccer.haha.just came back from soccer match.haiz.im soo disappointed.we lost?really?yeah.its true.we lost 5-3.haiz.stupid lar.lack of training.thats why.and the weather is sucks!the field is muddy!thats the reasons that make us lost.haiz.hate this kind of weather.we played well today but im really disappointed with the result.still not satisfied with the result!!i want a rematch!!i dont care.haha.well.atleast we played fair game.hehe.i dont go for victory but i go glory.haha.now im tired.need lots and lots of rest.tomorrow will be playing soccer again.coz next year have to cut down on soccer,computer and tv.need to study.my new year resolution is study hard for my 'n' level next year.and many more.hehe.gtg now.btw im still missing her a lots.friends mah!!

2005-12-26T23:29:00.000+08:00

hey.ermm.actually there's nothing to update today.hehe.coz today i only play soccer.but im kinda no mood today.haiz.well.but im still miss her.haha.its true!its true!well,gtg now.bye!

2005-12-25T13:07:00.000+08:00

hey!!its finally sunday and christmas is today.haha.soo happy eventhough i dont really celebrate.but because of her,i celebrate also.hehe.And still 1month to go till my birthday!!hehe.well nothing much too say.just want to wish to all MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

just came back from playing soccer with my besties.hehe.soo damm tired.yesterday and today i've been playing soccer.haiz.coz im bored.thats why i play soccer.haha.and maybe tomorrow i will be playing soccer again.wee!!i want to improved on my skills.haha.want to become the next ronaldinho.hehe.dream on boy.ok.nothing much happen today.soo,the shorter my post will be.good night and merry christmas to everyone!!miss her a lot eventhough we haven meet before.

2005-12-24T14:47:00.000+08:00

Good afternoon to all readers. what,today is the eve of Christmas!!i would like to wish everyone an advance merry christmas.hope all your wish come true and the santa will come to your house tonight.giving everyone presents.hope soo.haha.well.i will be updating more later ok.coz i need to go for soccer training now.bye.hoo hoo hoo!!merry christmas everyone!!

Phew.just came back from my aunt's birthday party.but before that,go soccer training.im tired,sick and dehydrated.today is my bad day.haiz.get scolded by my coach.he said that im slacking today.ofcourse im slacking coz IM SICK!!why cant they just understand me?is that difficult?haiz.i go,they scold2.if i dont go,also scold2.haiz.after training,went to my aunt's birthday party.meet my family there.eat fried rice.didnt finish my food coz im not well and cant eat much.the bbq chicken taste like shit sia.half cooked!!who the hell gonna eat half cooked food?stupid!!dont know how to cook!!haiz.i already sick and they are making me even sicker.took 2 panadols.then i went home alone.my family like dont care about me sia.im sick but nobody even care about me.feel like killing myself.haiz.just message her for awhile.she's busying shopping with her parents.haiz.i need someone who is care about me.my family are hopeless and useless.well.i gtg now.i want to rest and eat panadols again.bye.merry christmas everyone!!hope everyone will enjoy this coming christmas but im here suffering.

2005-12-23T18:02:00.000+08:00

Bored!have you guys noticed that for the past two days,my post always start with the word bored.right.coz its really bored these days!i dont know why.haiz.well.its a strike!!three days straight bored at home.dont know what to do.well.school is reopening soon.im ready for school coz i miss all my friends but i miss her more than all my friends.i wanted to talk to her but its seem that there is no way i can contact her.i sms her,but she didnt reply.she online at msn,i talk to her,but she didnt reply also.haiz.i just want to know how is she.thats all.is that difficult to tell me.everyday i always wrote about her.hope she read my blog.hope soo..well.no mood to say more.coz i feel weak these days.i dont know why.i think im having a fever right now.just now took temperature.indicate that im sick.37.5 degress.omg!!im sick.haiz.hope she will be online sooner or later.gtg now.need to all those stupid pills and syrup.yuckies!!bye.

Haiz.just meet sufian for awhile.soo bored.went to triple 8.eat at kfc.after that walk2.waste some times under the block.talk about our past when we were in primary school.haha.soo funny!!do all the stupid things.haha.i cant take it.haha.but inside of me still sick.i do look ok outside,but still hurts inside.haiz.just now sms kak nana and her.i was relieved after she replied my messages.well gtg now.hope she's enjoy just now while im sick.haiz.bye..good night readers!!

2005-12-22T20:43:00.000+08:00

My School BAg
My School Pencil Box
My New Wallet.I Love Brown

Damm bored!!got nothing to do at home.got comp also no use.still bored.haiz.just now i was relieved.after what kaiyisah told me.hehe.im now better than before.thanks to kaiyisah,kak nana and tasha.they are the one who is giving me hope.without them,i already give up on her.thanks guys.love you guys a lot.hehe.they gave me advices and some tips.cool right to have a friend like that.eventhough i jusk know them,compared with my others friends,they are better than all my others friend.chat with them at msn.lala chat with me also but dhe's like no mood chatting with me.its ok.i understand her.well..

2005-12-22T10:52:00.000+08:00

Boredness.the whole day at home.feel like killng myself.death to boredness.watched lord of the ring at my comp.long time never see.then i called sufian ang meet him under his block around 7.45.went to civic.deposit my money..then go causeway point.walk2.went to popular wanted to buy my stationaries but expensive.didnt buy.meet ayu at mrt station.just want to meet her.after that go kfc buy swiss meal.first time im eating that.take away.we walk until fragrant wood then eat there.sit under this big hut.people walked pass us and look at us as if we dont have any house.i do have a crib ok!!after eating went to vista point and buy my stationaries there.16bucks gone!!haiz...is this world only depends on money!!no money,no nothing!!

reached home around 10.30.shower.then sms her.she finally replied.but i didnt expect this to happen.we were like not happy with each other.im the who should be blame.i dont understand her life.i trying to understand her life but how am i gonna do that if we didnt contact with each other.haiz.she was like dont want to message me again.i was like sad!is all my words offenced her??i try to make her happy but there is still no changes.haiz.i tried my very best on her.at last,we quarrelled.fuck!!can we just be like the first day when we know each other??

2005-12-20T10:23:00.000+08:00

GooD MOrNIng...I WokE UP At 8am today..then i switch on my comp...check2 my friendster...then update my blog....very tiring liao....until now i still updating my blog...What The HELL UpDate AlSo i dont know...blar2...ok..now..i want to bath..hehe....haven bath from just now...hehe...gtg now...chao![10.22am]

phew...sOO tired liao...jsut came back from town with zul...thanks for accompany me go town....bought my school bag,school shoe,wallet and pencil box...cost a lot of money...only one day at town,i already spend 130bucks...wow!thats a lot...haiz..bought this ripcurl bag,vans shoe,quiksilver wallet and quiksilver pencil box...zul bought quiksilver pencilbox,quiksilver wallet,quiksilver flip flop,stussy mashat and fred perry bag....we really like rich people huh...hehe...once a month duh!!went to borders for a while...listen to music....then meet ayu at galleria..coz i want to fetch her from work...took the mrt and alight at woodlands...took 903 as per normal...then send her until under her block..went home...soo tired...took shower and now im updating my blog...haiz...nowdays i feel like no mood...i just miss her a lot!!a lot like lurve...haha!!still she didnt reply my msg coz her prepaid is low...its ok..i understand her...i want to let out all my feelings toward her but its no use coz she wont be in love again...omg!!i was like heart broken...hope she's ok right now...just want to know hows is she....i just read her blog just now..soo sad...she got sore throat and cough..soo sad...hope she eat medicine already...just pray hard is she's gonna be ok...miss her a lot eventhough we are friends...gtg now...i want to rest!![10.09pm]

2005-12-19T12:39:00.000+08:00

Phey....this is my first time making blog....really make me confuse and i was like half way give up..but luckily with the help of sarah,i managed to complete this blog thingy..thanks sarah..really appreciate your helps..hehe...but still got lots of things to do...i've just wasted 2hrs just to create the account and design it..well..gtg now...haven finish with this blog of my..hehe..[1.55pm]

Now i want to stop already...tired of this blog..hehe..maybe tonight after dinner then i continue..aniwae just want to wish AYU congrats because she get to go to sec 5 next year..hehe...hope you do well in your 'o' level next year.. [2.30pm]

haiz..very bored now...im still waiting for her to online since friday..i think she alraedy found someone special..if she really had found,just want to wish her congrats...hope she will be happy with her new guy...haiz...gtg now..[5.50pm]

Went causeway point with my second sis....accompany her buy christmas present for her colleague...then after that went home...we bought apple pie..eat and walk....thats all...chaoz![9.12pm]